welcome to my ranting space! this is a corner where i complain about whatever. i just love to rant LOL! head back home! 
so, im currently waiting on a package. It's a keychain of bullfrog from captain laserhawk, and its really cute! however, it was being held at the post office and i was like okay! no biggie! i'll just go pick it up. But it wasn't there?? it hadn't even been delivered yet. So the lady behind the counter hands me a little slip of paper with the customer service number for the post on it and she tells me to call. I worked up the courage to call the number (phone calls are spooky) and go through the motions of the press one for this and that, you know. For whatever reason i can not get through to an actual person, its all these virtual assistants with robotic voices. That is SUPER frustrating, because my issue wasn't easily explainable to the dialouge tree of the virtual assistant. Just being able to talk to a person who can fully process the information im telling it would really help... then i try to use the chat feature on their website, and it keeps failing to let me type or scroll to read their messages! I just cant communicate with the person at all! because the dang service wont let me!! it frustrated me so much I decided to throw in the towel. Just today I got another notice on my front door that the post office is holding it, so maybe its actually been delivered. I hope so! I really dont want this to become an ongoing issue. that would blow chunks.
now. I've never been a math person. I've certainly never claimed to be! I'ts consistently and always my least favourite classes out of everything I take. I just cant get it! there are so many itty bitty little rules that are so easy to screw up. So many things to forget... it's always been my own personal nightmare. But by GOD, this data management class im taking is SICKENING. I was told that this was the easier math course in my school, so obviously, i took it. After all, i took a different one and all it gave me was a headache. Not even kidding, i left all five of the classes i attended in that class with a headache. I just figured, well as long as i have some sort of math! My current life plan is to become an animator or some sort of artist, so im not super concerned about math. But they LIED ABOUT THIS ONE BEING THE EASIER ONE!!! THEY LIED!!!! They dont give you step by step notes in this class as much as they tell our table groups to work on the white boards and solve the questions he gives us. As someone who needs to look back and reference things, this is killer. There are almost never clean steps he gives us to follow! it hurts my little heart, dearly. I've got a pretty poor grade in the class, and he's super mean about it too. He openly shames people who do poorly in front of the entire class! It's CRAZYYY! like, i can assure you that no one wants to ask for your help now after you talked to them like that. It's such a confusing class.. and recently, the entire class did pretty badly on a test. He got mad at us, so he decided we needed to 'earn' the right to redo it. We would need to show him that we had done a certain amount of work to do the redo. Now... if your job is to help a class of students understand a topic, and they all en masse do a poor job when you test that knowledge.. is that the fault of the students or the person who is trying to teach them? Of course, I cant say its entirely on him. This isnt a black or white kind of situation. But i was pretty put off by how much he seemed to blame us for it! Not to mention that he gave us a pop quiz because he was mad at us. Ugghhh... now this isnt a complaint about the class, but it is BOILING in that room. i always sweat my butt off. I've got curly enough hair that does not like humidity. So no matter how cute my hair is that day, math class kills it.... so sad... anyways, just a hater. cant wait to graduate and never have to step foot in that classroom every again! WOOHOO!!
OH MY GOD EVERYBODYYY THAT WAS INSANE i may actually have to make an owl house page specifically to ramble abt these thoughts. Honestly? I think that i will. BUT im not compmaining about the finale as much as im going to complain about some people's opinions on it that i think are like super duper wrong or just like vaguely wrong OKAY SO! first i'd like to talk about the themes, specifically how they treat like pacifism. I do indeed think that all of those memes that are like "who did belos think she was steven universe lol" are VERY funny bc no way she does not have f all to give to belos that small squishy brown stain.. BUT the show isnt saying like... KILL YOUR ENEMIES PACIFISM IS LAME!!! i think thats a super lazy take, especially considering how the Collector attempts to show kindness to belos, something that Luz congratulates him for. Luz has been showing kindness and care all throughout the series, especially being seen with Amity. At least half of the people in her life by the end of the series HAD SOME BEEF WITH HER!!! She even went out of her way to save the Collector despite basically wishing he would just die for hurting her friends. She understands it's not truly his doing. That poor guy was JUST A KID! She showed kindness and remained a pacifist when she could, and Luz has always been a beacon of light and love to the people who surround her. belos, however, isn't a good person. we are all very aware of this by now im sure HAHA when they stomped on him in that little puddle there it was much less of a KINDNESS IS BAD and more of a hatred is lame kind of route. It shows how pathetic his mindset is. Desperate to be some sort of hero and convinced he's better than an entire world full of people, he was never a cool evil genius. He was manipulative and scrappy and a pathetic little swine to the end. Once the people band together to destory hate and value their own lives as well as the lives of the people around them, that force of control and fear just seems obsolete. The story lets you know that you dont have to let bad people back into your life. You do not have to spend all of your energy showing love to someone who refuses to change. It is okay to stomp on somebody like that. You know what? I thought that was a very, very satisfying ending. Hatred and control are lame identities! Never let anyone control who you are! WONDERFUL! also as much as im not a Hunter x Edric lover i think ppl calling it basically a proship are really doing a bit TOO much because we really cant say Darius x Alador is EXPLICITLY canon idk if we're going to argue that Huntlow isn't than i think its in the same ballpark... IM NO HATER i love Darius X Alador and i think that theyre so cutie pie but really i think that ppl calling Edric and Hunter a proship for that reason are a bit absurd. ok BYEEEEEEEEEEE
so, its pretty cold where i live. which, you know, whatever! im cool with the cold. However, where i live to my school, im aparently "too close for a bus". but its about an hour long walk! how is that too close for a bus? so, whenever i cant get a ride, i've gotta walk, ok. Of course. I can deal with that! I need the exercise anyways. HOWEVER the thing that i can not STAND is the mask feel. My backpack is pretty heavy, and im pretty out of shape. So im breathing pretty heavily. The main problem comes as soon as i reach the school and try to put on my mask. IT GETS SO SWEATY. no matter what i do. my mask will be so sweaty. Today i tried covering my face with a scarf the entire way there, but my mask STILL got sweaty. less so than usual though, so we are making PROGRESS! however, i think its just my heavy breathing. I cant really take it off, because... you know, global pandemic? And no one where i am really wears masks except for my close good friends (love those guys) so i really get no leway. SUPER frustrating. I like the morning walks. They are crisp and delightful! they really wake me up. Its just the maskfeel at the end of them that drives me ABSOLUTELY POSITIVELY INSANE!!!!
